You can’t be something that you’re not.

It sounds like an easy platitude to follow–be yourself. But quite often we choose to be something other than who we really are. Something other than who God calls us to be.

Many of us try to choose a career or a way of life that will make us comfortable rather than something that we think will fulfill us. And when it doesn’t, we put on the mask. The mask that tells everyone that I’m doing OK. I’m just fine right here in my nice little life.

In fact for about ten years of my own life…I wore that mask.

I always felt like I should be working in the church. I was afraid to admit that I felt more alive when I was running retreats, participating at mass, doing community service, or going on a mission trip. I was afraid to even explore the idea of doing some form of ministry, so instead I chose broadcasting, a career that I thought was glamorous and lucrative and exciting. And I was pretty good at it too. But each day I went to work I found myself being less and less excited about who I was. I even interviewed Michael Jordan one day and found myself less than taken with the experience.

“You should be much more excited about this than you are!” a friend noted.

But I wasn’t.

I was a lot like Peter. Because Peter thinks that he’s fisherman. But Jesus knows that Peter is a Pope.

And I thought I was a broadcaster but Jesus knew that I was really a preacher and lay minister.

And like Peter, I had all the excuses, “I’m not good enough to minister to God’s people. Or smart enough. Or holy enough. Peter denied Jesus three times and I have my own sins that I sometimes still think make me unworthy.

And like Peter I know that Jesus is alive. Peter has witnessed the resurrected Jesus twice and this still hasn’t gotten him past his own fears and guilt and sin.

So Peter quits.

The Greek translation of the words “I’m going fishing” in today’s gospel can also mean, “I’m going back.”

I can just hear Peter…“It’s over. I’m not anything more than a simple fisherman. And a fisherman fishes!”

This is the one who ran, not walked, but ran to that tomb when he heard he was alive. He is the one who saw Thomas put his finger into his wounds and his hand in his side. Peter is the one who jumps into the water at the very sight of Jesus. But he’s also the one who decides to just go fishing–despite the good news of Jesus resurrection.

Now Peter and the others have been fishing all night and no fisherman that is worth his salt ever wants to be caught with an empty net. It seems that if Peter is a fishermen, then he is not very good at it. And if we remember back to the time when Jesus first called Peter and the disciples they weren’t too good at fishing then either.

And Peter seems to have learned nothing from that time when he said “Depart from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man.”

But who is the real fisherman? Isn’t Jesus is the one who fishes for all of us time and time again? And when he catches Peter, just as he catches all of us, he catches a sinner.

But Jesus shows him that his net has enough room to love the entire world. 153 fish is no accident. It represents each country that was known to man at that time. There is room for all people, even sinners in Jesus’ net.

And then, Jesus asks Peter to come over to that charcoal fire–talk about awkward. When Jesus tells him to come over to that fire you can almost hear the hesitation…

“The charcoal fire, Lord?”

“Yes Peter, you know like the one where you denied me by three times while you warmed yourself.”

But it is there where Peter brings those denials with him, that he finds that Jesus love is strong enough to hold those sins and to forgive them. The net unlike that first catch at the call of the disciples does not tear this time—for this is the resurrected Jesus, who defeats sin and division and even death and whose love for us despite our own failings still reaches out again and again.

Sins sometimes weigh us down and cause our nets to be too heavy for us and we can feel like we’re drowning. But Jesus is able to bring our nets to the surface–he sees these sins for what they are and he dispenses with them –and feeds us with new life here each week, just as he feeds Peter by that charcoal fire.

When we experience that kind of love—shouldn’t we be transformed? Shouldn’t that kind of love make us all want to go out and bring that same love into the world?

Or are we content to just sit in a boat?

“Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?”

What Jesus is really asking is, “Simon—you love me more than FISHING, don’t you?”

Then feed my lambs. Tend my sheep. Feed my sheep. Stop running away from me! I have already forgiven you. I will be all you’ll ever need. I will feed you so that you won’t ever be hungry so why are you FISHING?

Simon gets offended when Jesus asks that third time–because Simon is still simple Simon. And that Simon is not much of a Peter.

Simon is still too afraid to believe his love for Jesus will be enough. He is too afraid that he’ll deny Jesus all over again. He’s too caught up in his own sinfulness to be able to become the man that Jesus knows he can be—the man we see in our first reading today who when threatened with even prison and death goes right back into the temple and preaches about the Jesus who has indeed transformed Peter and who can transform all of us. And Peter even boasts that he stirred the place up so much that they considered him a troublemaker.

t’s an easy thing to buy into this idea that Jesus’ love might not be enough. Especially the past few weeks when we continue to hear about the sins that has weighed our church down. The cold, hard facts of our church’s pedophillia scandal has been all over the papers and it’s caused many people to question what we are all about. It’s a fair question, I suppose. Perhaps some of you have heard it from your friends too. It’s been a trying time and I know that I have had to answer many questions from people who wonder just how I can even call myself a Catholic without dying of embarrassment. And while many should be brought to justice for what they’ve done–it is up to each one of us to also believe that through us Jesus can heal this division. That we can reach out in love to those who have suffered at the hands of our own clergy. That our hands and feet can be those of Jesus reaching and walking with those caught up in anger and pain and sadness.

What is it that keeps us from thinking that we are not enough? What sends us back to the fishing boat? Fishing for more than Jesus and ending up feeling empty.

If we believe that Jesus is all that we need–what would others say about our faith then? Can’t we proclaim that Jesus is indeed all we need with our lives of commitment that will inspire others to see that our faith is not based in human beings who are doomed to make mistakes, but rather, our faith is based in the one who continues to defeat death and suffering and sin.

Our faith is based in the one who asks if we can love Him more than everything else?

Our faith compels us to come here each week and eat from this table and know that this meal–this Jesus, is enough for us to overcome anything.

And Jesus asks us “Do you love me enough to believe that?”

I hope we can believe that. Because if we can, the power of that love can indeed transform us into all that God knows we can be.

“Do you love me more than these?”

I do believe Lord, help my unbelief.

0 thoughts on “Caught in Jesus’ Net”
  1. Wow – what a great post Mike. I hear you on the career change part… It just took me longer, a lot longer, to get out of the media business.

    But, here I am Lord!

    Jesus does know us. No wonder so many of us run from him.

    Thank you for this and for all you do.

  2. Via Facebook:

    From Sue Bacon Ballew

    Mike this was a great note to all of us. Me especially. I know I can do more than I do, but I don’t ….either out of fear or shame.

  3. Great article Mike.
    I also like the latter part of the story where Jesus invites the apostles to breakfast around the fire. Jesus inviting the apostles to a meal reminds me of my parents calling us to the table for a meal. It sounds so inviting.
    I somehow like the idea of having a meal with Jesus. It helps to be transformed.

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